I Wanna Cry

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life

Im so frustrated beyond words, my heart aches so much, and my pride is hurt. Keep tryna find ways to make it through the day, hold up my head up n find some strength to pray. Im soo fed up, im at the end of the rope, knee deep in the quick sand of life and trying to hold on to hope. So damn tired of complainin over bills, scraping up money and living in fear of loosing this battle of building my foundation that i bust myfor. Job after job, assistance is mandatory and im almost to knees and this is only part of my story. Barely able to afford the price of living, feel like there is a choke hold on my neck asking me to give in. Im keep fighting, never expectnig it to be easy or asking for pity but dammit why me. I wanna cry out this stress n frustration but the tears wont fall in fact they're stubbornly hesitating. I wanna scream!! Damn im tired of this , pay this bill and that bill and late fees and lonely ain nobody gone do this for me. I feel backed into a corner, im fighting all my might. Custody battle over my baby, friends ain there, all is left is prayer. Im trying to hold on, my strength n faith keeps getting pulled on. Damn, i jus wanna cry this out but like a dam, my tears are stopped up from coming out. Rage in my chest, tired of being tested! Have i not lost n sacrificed enough, this life keeps getting tough. I wanna cry it out! So frustrated, i dont know how to let it out, these fingers cant type fast enough, my heart cant get any more calmer, cant keep askin for help or holding all this anger within inside myself. So frustrated.. damn when all my troubles end or slow down n maybe get a little easier. Feel like throwing stuff, breaking things, crying and screaming, i need a releases cus i feel like a child wanting to throw tantrum with all its might. Im tired and trying to hold on, i just wanna cry but i cant...