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I have this little glade candle and the fire was burning kinda dim and low
and it reminded me so much of my broken soul.
It was at any minute , at anytime to easily burn out ,
if you been thru what i been thru then you know what my feelings towards this dim light is all about.
It brought of the past and the pain it held , but it stilled burned ,maybe its screaming for help.
Its no longer brand new ,and it cant be replace ,it reminded me of when i was living in the devils place.
and how far i went in life ,i remember when i almost made it end with a knife.
But the glad candle is still lit ,i couldnt help but feel like a part of it.
This little candle showed me that thru all the pain ,life was something i could still handle.
Even with everything going against me ,and if god bless me with another day ,
Then ill be okay and i dont have to have any friends , that day happen for a reason ,so that relation must end,
And for people who hate i learned that shouldnt give me no reason that my fire shouldnt burn , later on in life ,its better to give and to earn.
Because i learned i dont need nobody but myself and people who stood with me.
And f*** everybody who just came to see and my brother who kept beating me.
I know im not perfect but who is ,so everday im just telling myself i can do this.
Because nothing ever stays the same ,and if i want to switch then its time to play another game.
I like to do this so one day ill be able to school this to other young girls like me who still have alot to figure out.
Man its h*ll ,living a life of self doubt.
So im pushing more motivation, because iam gods unique creation. im starting to learn to fill in the spaces.
And to fix my broken soul and to let the past just freely go.
Out along in the wind ,i dont care how long i been on this earth , i can always start over and just do it over again.
Just by lighting this lil glad candle and watching it burn ,it made me realize about how i forgot about all the valuable lessons i learned.
It showed me how little my soul was ,and how i still had light , its about time that i get this thing called life right back on track , because once i leave theres no coming back.
