| I Reminisce Over You
 Without a care in the worldHe careless talks to me about his girl
 How she's this & how she's that
 How he loves her & how she has his back
 Forgetting that we
 Have an eventful history
 He's happy with her & I can see it in his eyes
 He's different now. More mature, more clean cut & even the more wise
 I swear I try to be cool but apart of me wishes he was talking in reference to me
 Our story is one of friendship, love, betrayal & demise
 And for some reason I'm ALWAYS looking for him in other guys
 I know I won't find love this way
 But just hear what I gotta say
 Friendship turned to love can be a beautiful chemistry but what happens when it's no longer "You & Me"?
 He's moving on
 I sitting here still trying to figure what went wrong
 He's happy with another
 My heart keeps drifting further &...
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       | Bagged up, Broken Up
 I took my heart in my handBagged it up tightAnd smashed it into pieces of already broken pieces, on purpose.You're the healer of broken heartsI KNOW that to be trueSo bagged up, broken up Is my heart in raw formLike a sculptor to marbleYou see the "Venus De Milo" In these broken pieces you can make artSo Bagged up, broken upI give these pieces over to youAll I ask, is that you make me over anew | 
    
       | With You In Mind
 Caress my bodyKiss on my skin
 You make lust
 Feel like the sweetest of sin
 I'm yours for tonight
 My body ready to take flight
 Like |JETS|
 You know just how to get me wet
 With us it's more than sex
 Can't explain this perplex
 You're my drug of choice
 First I get high then I get moist
 Ecstasy, Infinity & beyond
 Me & you got this
 Crazy, flamed kind of bond
 You my homie
 Mr. Luva
 My friend
 Swear this  gon hurt
 Something REAL when it ends
 You got me for now
 this is what I want from you
 Love me hard, like I've always loved you
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       | Dedicated To My Biological Father
 I still remember to this dayHow on my 11th birthday
 I stood to your face & poured
 Out to you all my heart had to say
 I cried.
 You cried.
 I pleaded.
 You said you tried
 But this addiction was too hard to kick
 And EVERYTIME I heard that
 it made...me....SICK
 When I see you, you still bring up
 This fond memory
 Of doing my hair as though
 That was the only bond you had with me.
 Sad to say, I don't remember that
 And if that was you before addiction, Id do anything to bring that back.
 Married to the rock & sleeping with
 the residue stained glass pipe
 holds you back from your full
 Potential & making everything right
 with your daughter & your son
 You say it's a losing war
 But if you truly try, that's one battle won
 Sorry is the man who allows another man
 to fat...
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       | Single Again...
 The worst words the man you love can say is: "You'll make someone a good wife one day". I swear, that one line STILL burns me up when I think about it today. So, now that me & you are pretty much over & through, I keep trying to find new & interesting things new to do. I cant front & say that being single doesnt seem a bit weird, Im actually handling it pretty well, not as bad as I feared. I do miss the laughs, your jokes & even your attitude. BUT Im learning, growing & understanding myself in solitude. I sometimes think of the things that I couldve done differently, but destiny is real & God knows better whats best for you & me. Im 25, single, no children & a place of my own. Good job, operating car & Im free to be me and roam. Single may be my new found status, but single is not who I happen to be. So, I'm going back to college, use my mind to achieve my degree. Im... | 
    
       | ass(YOU)ume
 They say when you assume, you make an a** of only youBut I say, some assumptions are fed faithfully by the things people doTrust me, Im no saint by any meansbut everything really isnt what it seems... | 
    
       | ....
 I woke up this morning in a new state of mindI'm not letting anything or anyone take what's mine.Joy & peace, have been distant for a whileThis morning I took them back & my happiness is in my heart & smile.If you don't like the woman I happen to beMy door is finally unlocked, you can most definitely leaveIm honestly not afraid of losing you anymoreAt this point, I don't know what we're still in this for.If you show me effort, yeah sure I'll give effort in returnWords hold no weight to me, so let me see action in your words like a verbI'm not going to fuss or continue to try to get you to see my point of viewI'm literally doing me, at this point I could care less what you doI'm no longer going to go out of my way to show you how I feelOh & the sex? Consider that sh** over. YES, I am SO for real.I need a man who appreciates being in a relationship with meI hones... | 
    
       | Death To Social Media...
 Whatever happened to people verbally expressing what they feel?Face-to-face or on the phone not Facebook, Twitter or whatever else everybody on!Social media has ***ed up reality in such a huge wayNow people use these SITES to say what they gotta say.The internet & smartphones has become primary way to communicateSeriously, online people will tell you when they're in a relationship, over a friendship or something as stupid & simple as when their period is late.Social media has even lessened the intimacy of relationshipsIt has broken many bonds of good friendshipsSocial media has become a way of finding out the most recent newsWho don't like who & whos  is whose.I know that as time moves on technology does toobut wouldn't it be nice to get to know someone like youWithout reading their "About Me" synopsis or their pasts post?I honestly just hate to see the directio... | 
    
       | Fri(END)s...
 Once upon a time, I thought I had friendsGrew up & learned that friends will fade away like trendsI thought If I would be the friend that I wanted someone to be to meThat eventually I'd be surrounded by authenticity & loyalty(Life fooled me)I used to believe that friendship was about longevityThat longevity produced loyalty & loyalty still had value(Who knew?)In "friENDships" I learned a lot about myself And that my morals & my standards are indeed my wealth.In the end,I learned that everybody can't be MY friend.To this day I live happily ever after...satisfied with closed chapters |