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seems lately, you haven't held me close
like you used to do
look me deeply in the eyes
as lovingly, as i want to look at you
arguments have become narrow
even our conversations
are brief and shallow
i am lost in a mirage as i look deeply into the mirror
another face looks back at me.
freedom of the soul as i have always come to know
just isn't what it used to be
it only leaves me lonely
even when you're around
with a feeling of emptiness inside
it's just as if you put me down
as it seems just another chain reaction
a set of rebellions without a cause
to believe in for you and me
as time after time i feel like crying
believe it or not there's no one else
but, i don't feel like lying
lately you've been pushing me away
i'm getting tired of trying to look both ways
before dotting my eyes and crossing my t's
when i say to you i love you
although, even now,
as the image of you
which it has come to be...
an angry soul on fire
where once there was a golden glow
wherever it went, it's lost now
your bouts of anger now come in continuous streams
i no longer have you to hold on to
when i sense the need to comfort you
the reaction it feeds is discouraging me
and every byproduct of my best intentions
instantaneously is rejected by you
so what else can i do
but run out from under the storm clouds
that are now always surrounding you,
trying to catch some sunshine
somewhere, in between my dreams
of getting back where i used to love to be
where it seemed i was wanted
for more than the sum of my component parts...
what i could potentially do for you
now its only a dream
you must have taken away prisoner
the one i thought of as
so truly beautiful...
making love was magical
even in my dreams
once between you and i
seems like only yesterday...
when i held you close
i could feel you melt between my arms
at night it seemed
you would wait for me
and i treasured every moment
because deep down inside
i could still feel you and now,
you only feel the anger by my presence
like somebody, whose been betrayed
which i honestly feel i did not do to you
and now that it's done
another angry tide of obscenities
has come and replaced my lighthouse in stormy seas
and what you always loved to do for me
you say that you no longer
have any desire to do
all i have left is the smoke..
.that the wind is now blowing away
and the dream i had, that if you won,
everybody else would lose
and i thought of myself as someone
who could turn your night to day
in an exciting, new and bold refrain
against the grain of what you were used to
it seems all to be turning out
a different way
are we both trapped in a mirage
is there a way can there be a way
to get back, where we thought we once belonged?
can we both be right or maybe both be wrong
get together and make it right
or has too much damage already been done
am i right back where i started
when this all began
with nowhere left to run...
in a mirage with you
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