In freefall At this Crucial Moment.
Can't reach, Where You are
right now, When it matters most
Could not Have had worse timing
Why Am i falling blindly...
With so little Chance To recover...
Feeling Overexposed...
Trying hard To find my place...
to achieve balance
losing My Mind...
Can't seem to Find my composure,
Can't reach A meaningful Conclusion,
i must have closure
I am losing this battle With myself
As The area Which Represents
My mindspace...
becomes compressed into a vacuum
To an atmospheric condition
increasing tension
My breathing shallow, rapid...
i gasp for air As you approach
in a storm Thunder talks in steps
Towards The place Where now i stand...
Lightning Walks Across the skies To me...
you are so angry, The glare intense
as the verbally assaults Continue...
Seeking my heart As i recoil
Losing mind control
My thoughts Bleed out....
Out of room To retreat further within...
So i react, The only Way i know, i run
the shell Where i retreat has collapsed...
as My ability to resist further declines
And the natural smile I aspire to maintain
has become a shallow mask
Clearly, i am not Up to the task
feels like I need a drink
A space in time to sit and think
Although, i know, Medication
only treats the symptoms...
I just want To forget myself
To quiet These inner demons
There within while i talk
my former self Further into surrender
Put it On the shelf, forget about...
What i remember Of this,
Turn myself inside out My inner being
Find another way of seeing myself
Through this Before i kiss the sky
Thank you,
for all You've done
For me
give you A kiss,
goodbye
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