Running out of room

In freefall At this Crucial Moment.
Can't reach, Where You are

 

right now, When it matters most
Could not Have had worse timing

 

Why Am i falling blindly...

With so little Chance To recover...

Feeling Overexposed...

 

Trying hard To find my place...
to achieve balance

 

losing My Mind...

 

Can't seem to Find my composure,
Can't reach A meaningful Conclusion,

 

i must have closure
I am losing this battle With myself

 

As The area Which Represents

 My mindspace...

 

becomes compressed into a vacuum
To an atmospheric condition 

 

increasing tension 

 

My breathing shallow, rapid...

i gasp for air As you approach

 

in a storm Thunder talks in steps
Towards The place Where now i stand...

 

Lightning Walks Across the skies To me...

 

you are so angry, The glare intense
as the verbally assaults Continue...

 

Seeking my heart As i recoil
Losing mind control

 

My thoughts Bleed out....
Out of room To retreat further within...

 

So i react, The only Way i know, i run

the shell Where i retreat has collapsed...

 

as My ability to resist further declines
And the natural smile I aspire to maintain

 

has become a shallow mask
Clearly, i am not Up to the task

 

feels like I need a drink
A space in time to sit and think

 

Although, i know, Medication
only treats the symptoms...

 

I just want To forget myself
To quiet These inner demons

 

There within while i talk
my former self Further into surrender

 

Put it On the shelf, forget about...
What i remember Of this,

 

Turn myself inside out My inner being
Find another way of seeing myself

 

Through this Before i kiss the sky

 

 Thank you,

 

for all You've done
For me 

 

give you A kiss,

goodbye

 

 

C2