run(g) ...out of room

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just different

...in free+fall
At this... Crucial...
Moment...
Can’t reach,
Where
You are

right+ now,
When it matters most
Could not
Have had
worse time(g)...
Why
Am i...

falling
...blindly...
With so little
Chance
To
...recover...

Feel(g)
Overexposed...

Try(g) hard
To find
my place...
…to achieve balance
…los(g)
My
Mind...

Can’t seem to
Find my composure,
Can’t reach
A mean(g)ful
Conclusion,

…must have closure
I am los(g)
This...

…battle...
With myself

As
The area
Which
Represents
My mindspace...

becomes compressed
…into a vacuum
To an atmosphereic condition...
...increasing tension...
My breathing shallow, rapid...

i gasp for air…
As you approach
...in a storm...
Thunder
Talks in steps
Towards
The place
Where i stand...

Lightn(g)
Walks
Across the skies
To me...

you are so angry,
The glare intense
as the verbally assaults
Continue...
Seeking my heart
As i recoil
Losing mind control
My thoughts
Bleed out....
Out of room
To retreat further
…within...
So i react,
The only
Way i know,
i run…

the shell
Where i retreat
…has collapsed...

as
My ability to resist
…further declines
And the natural smile
I aspire to maintain
has become a shallow mask
Clearly, i am not
Up to the task
feels like...
I need a drink
…to sit and think
Although, i know,
Medication
…only treats t
He symptoms...
I just want
To forget myself
To quiet
The inner demons
There within
while i talk
...my former self
Further ...into surrender
Put it
On the shelf,
forget about...
What i remember
Of this,
Turn myself
...inside out...
My inner being
Find another way
of see(g) myself
Through this...
Before i kiss the sky…
Thank you, for all
You’ve done
For me
give you…
A kiss,
goodbye

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