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I can feel it my chest pounding, the pressures to succeed compounding
Trying to surpass survival and thrive is astounding, couldnt move it so im climbing this mountain
Struggling to block out the noise around me, engulfed in content and its affecting my well being
Ignoring what the past is telling me, honestly im hoping the past will be propellers for me
Cant express my frustrations verbally or intelligently, that fear of failure is beginning to swallow me
Except now, Im not failing just myself-Im failing my everything
Its OK is what shes telling me, I dont believe it because what just happened is the thread of my fiber unravelling
Face to face with a ghost of the past challenging me, but dont mistake this as a case of me being cowardly
Just racing for a solution before this demon overpowers me, just looking for a reason to be proud of me
Because my everyday movements are no longer accomplishments, and the stress is reaching overwelming and destroying my confidence
I need help....just dont know who or how to ask for it
