Thankful

See I've lost you in the midst of my worldly flames & somehow along the way I've forgotten to call upon your heavenly name.

I had decided to run this race all by myself by placing you in the rear view along with all the other things that I had out ran and left.

I figured that to be alone would demonstrate a strong but in the long run I had come to discover that I was all so wrong.

I had been misled by my very own foolish thoughts & continually placed in battles in which I shouldn't have fought. 

I'd existed without any gains & found myself living in a reality of self-inflicted pains. 

To go about feeling worried and stressed but somehow I'd taught myself how to put on the happiest of all faces although I wasn't feeling my best. 

It was a disconnect that would ultimately create a walking train wreck. 

I was lost in a maze & so far gone that my very own selfish ways had become the sorrow for all of my days. 
 
Sadly I had watched myself fall deeper & deeper into the arms of despair & I had become a prisoner to thoughts like "no one really cares."

But I was so wrong in all of my thoughts because it wasn't until I cried out to you that I discovered what a true love was all about. 

Its was during the darkest of all my doings that you came and lifted me from my dreadful ruins. 

You gave me hope and a new sense of direction & provided me with a forgiveness that was filled with the gracefulness of your affection. 

You saved & delivered me from the rumbles of my troubled waters & then supplied me with a calmness that felt as if it were special ordered. 

For my yesterday's can no longer exist in my heart but it is this new day today that speaks a thankfulness about my deliverance and how you "The Most High" played a part. 

Never think you can do it on your own.... 

BiggWhite313
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