Will you stay??? pt 1

It doesnt even matter now, honestly it never did. You are gone now really you were gone then, only your shell remained. I should have paid attention to the signs in the back of my mind. Yelling daily to my heart that says part of his love has stopped. Who was i kidding, trying to pull the wool over these eyes has made me blind. No touch, no talk, no initiation only reciprocation. When did you stop wanting me? When did the sight of me sexually do nothing for you visually. You used to find me stimulating now only irritating, really its hurting and frustrating, my eyes keep crying. Cold spaces in between our bodies in the bed, searching for a place to lay my head. And to lay. All i want you to do is want me like you did, touch me like you used to do. Love me like you said you would. Sex me like you fantasized...no make love to me. Hold me tight as we ride with love through the night and see the sun rise...will we survive? Will you stay?  pt 1