Silence

I search for you everywhere

From old faces to new faces…yet I still cannot find you

Deep inside I know that we may never cross paths again

Maybe this is the reason why I cannot stop looking

Is this just my fear of forgetting you?

I play the scenes over and over again

Call out your name in my head as though you will respond to me

Yet the silence just continue to become stronger

The emptiness never disappear

What am I to do?

 

I look into the mirror and see your face

Close my eyes and see your smile

But when I reach my hand out…you are not there

Maybe I am just too stubborn to walk away

I am your carbon copy, and you are my twin

This is what everyone says

Can you hear me calling for you in my dreams?

Are you still able to remember the hug that I ran and gave to you at twelve?

Or has your mind been put to rest?

 

I smile constantly yet find myself shedding tears

Being a man is not as easy when there’s no longer one he can look up too

Here one minute and gone the next

You were my phantom that I always welcomed over and over again

The arms that I would run too

The face that I would seek

The footsteps that I would follow

The shadow I walked in

It was you who I wanted to be

Strong, kind and complete

Why did you leave me so incomplete?

I hate you one minute and love you the next

Cry one day and then fight myself the following week

Like slit wrists I am exiting out of my own inflections 

Pouring out every last ounce of my humanity 

 

If only I could pick up the phone and hear your voice

Send out a message and receive a response

Stand by a window and see you pull up

Maybe I would have some peace once more