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There was nothing that I could do but reach out for you
I tried to wrap my mind around the thought of loosing you once before but never would I have imagined that it would have been so soon
My mind was blown
One minute you were here, right here by myside
Laughing and sometimes crying tears of joy and thanking the Lord for the happiness that was showering down upon you like the morning sun
And then the next you were gone
The only thing that they left me with were memories and kisses that I know I will one day forget.
Whatever happened to second chances?
They say if you reach out far enough you can almost feel him touching your fingertips
Maybe that was what I was thinking when I was told to put mine up
I felt their eyes on me before I even had the chance to look in their direction
Before I ever stepped outside into the sunlight
They were already watching me
Judging me, renaming me before even asking me for my government
At that moment I realize that it was really a difference between being born a criminal and turning into one
Its like I was born into this extra skin that I could never grow out of
Soap and water and holy water was not able to cleanse this body of the sins that had made its way into the pores of my skin
It grew out like the hair and replaced itself like skin cells each and everyday
And regardless of what people may say, I unfortunately would never know what it will feel like to not be in this skin..
I felt the first blow and then the second and third one
They just kept continuing
Burying themselves into these walls that I had thought were going to protect me
Just like the oath they had swore to uphold
I felt their knees pressing down upon my back the hatred within their voices
The accusations that they were going to make stick
The stories that were going to be told about me
To distract the world from the fact that I am no longer around to say sorry
In the end I will be one of the most hated people in the world…without ever knowing why.
