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just different

Thought about speaking my truth still trying to figure out what me speaking is gonna do I ain’t ever been so stressed or worried about the next day trying to put together this next play my life has been shattered since this pandemic came now it’s life I’m chasing after because I want so much to change ....been feeling so numb no emotion can’t focus I been up in the middle of the night lyin hopeless they say I’m losing my mind that I’m so broken but they don’t hear me when I’m crying so I’ll show them all these scatter thoughts not one that can be chosen I been plotting ideas writing them down seeing if I can provoke one ain’t had any luck I’m starting to not give af about how I program reaching out half empty now where near full I been giving away parts of myself since you know who I swear my heart is too big I love everyone but I been hurt so much idk what it feels like to be healed for once I been chasing that high I once felt a couple years ago been burned every time I drop my guard down so I’m just use to watching my fears unfold I’m insecure I need to be reassured I speak from pain and love  I swear the lines have been blurred ...