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I could see goodbye in your eyes
It caught me not by surprise
I knew one day you would rise and go
I just didn't know if I could let you go
Still I knew you would go away
I could not form my words to ask you to stay
I shrugged my shoulders and walked away
I'm great at pretending I have no needs
and need no one like I don't care nor bleed
It's easy to put my middle finger in the air
"BABY COME BACK" I wouldn't dare
Toast to me cause I'm the fool
Now you’re gone
Abandonment issues 101
When I'm alone I want to pick up the phone
Just to say hello but how is that letting go?
Every time thoughts of you cross my mind
I lose track of time and fall way behind
I remember yesterday I made so many mistakes
I didn't say the things I wanted to say
I didn't write the poem I wanted to write
This is not the prayer I wanted to pray
I wanted to stay in yesterday
Today I did not want to wake
Not enough time in a day to say what I need to say
I still need yesterday
With yesterday you drifted away
Today another blank sheet to scrawl on
Without you to call on or your shoulder to fall on
Another poem to write Another lonely night
How do I make this right?
If I could form all the right words to say today
it would still be too late to convey
I'm a better person writer today pain made me that way
what am I trying to say? you don't read my poems anyway
