Do You Love Me?

Do you love Me?

Baptized in Holy Matrimony Washed cleaned of all sins,

I gave my life in mind only.

Lukewarm was my temperature,

Seeking personal gain thus denying your glory.

Do you love Me?

Seething in sin I know only one way,

Speaking of you through chapped lips,

Cursing and speaking self negativity,

Enjoying lust I embraced her instead of asking for deliverance.

Seeking love when I already had love, a path to destruction leading to damnation Heart conflicted but never addressing the issue I beseech you to save me Lor...

the words fail to pronounce your Holy Name.

Do you love Me? That night I will never forget, a night where you disciplined me. A night of my own free will I chose you,

That night I heard my soul within cry,

Thirsting for your Living Water,

Denying my flesh for the 1st time I wholeheartedly surrendered.

The Path of Preparation builds its roads.

Slowly I walk in fear of knowing that I must not and will not deviate for if I do hell fire awaits. But that fear is mind created, for you have not given us a spirit of fear.

BE STRONG AND COURAGEOUS! KNOW THAT I AM THE LORD! DO YOU LOVE ME?!

Yes, I do love you, but at times I do not love myself.

I wish to be unaware of wanting to change, And remain ignorant, but that path is now blocked.

How can you ask me when I haven't fully surrendered?

I still fight.

I still rebel.

I say I love you, but at times I don't even know what that is? How can you ask this of me Lord? I do love you, but fear beckons me.

Fear of not loving you whole-heartedly

As conviction disciplines me.

Hypocrisy speaks of ill intent

While deceit awaits to re-enter my heart.

I fight and rebel against myself daily,

Swords drawn I cut off my own ear To quite to chaos ROARING within me.

And you ask "Do You Love Me?"

WHY?!

It's because I do love you.

It was then I realized that GOD never asked the question.

It was I asking GOD "Do You Love Me?"