Wishbones

CATEGORY

life

In this graveyard far away from home I turn over stones

Blood on my hands from picking up hard plastic and broken bones

Still I look to the bones in closets and under carve stones

All the answers to my questions are gone there unknown

All the secrets kept from me about the sins of my family

Closed inside of a deep dark pit filled with facets anomalies

Standing beside deaths bed all alone the life support is on

I'm torn in wait of a word to be said or moaned

Something to pull back the scabs to the bone

From the womb to the wounds stand back

Give me some room to bleed out my lack

My case I plead “Please don’t go don’t you leave

This thing clings to me like a pet my shame my regret

You know why I do the things I do surely you do

Look at me you gave me this painful kiss

Again I ask you this will you take this with you

Will you dare? Lay there like you don’t care

I see you in intensive care, am I here to unplug you?

No I’m here to revive me your eyes are closed you don’t see

You have the secrets you hold the key

To unlock this cage inside of me

Let this monster go free that’s devouring

Clawing and ripping flesh from me traumatizing me

 This beast rises up into my throat gagging me

Take these bandages off of me mummifying me

Don’t you die on me with all that you’re holding?

Is sure to fall on me leading me back to therapy 

Ask me why? I don’t cry I guess I’m just desensitized 

What I need to know I’m trying to find to grow

I’ve been here before like a dream or déjà vu

I stand in front of a closing door

To never knock again no more

No leg to stand on in my hands a serpent and a stone

A generational curse and an empty home                                 

Too old to take it slow talk and I’ll let you go

So you can rest in peace isn’t it always so?