Toxic Lover

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Cold sweats & shivers take over my body I feel a warm stream of tears on my cheek as scream in pain to drain you out of my system. All it took was one hit One hit of you I took you in, in one puff and exhaled in ecstasy with a tingle in every nerve, floating on cumulonibus as the rain sounds soothed me into my pipedream of you & I becoming a we & you wanting only me. I breathed in your scent to heighten the sensation. The warmth of your touch brought me back to sanity. I was hooked after a look, stuck one touch, fiending to find meaning in a craving that left me screaming. It was poison & I loved it & I loved you more for supplying me, living a lie with me, going on a pipedream high with me But when it wore off it hurt. Sending sharp pains through me as I try to break from my addiction of you. Repeating "you can do it, you don't need the medication" over & over until I cleanse the toxic lover out my system while wanting nothing but more. Getting no rest, cry out from the pain I'm feeling. Why did I let this happen! I should've stopped while I was ahead but I realized I was never ahead. I was always attracted & when I acted on my attraction I was instantly an addict. All it took was one hit One hit of you I took you in, in one puff & exhaled in ecstasy knowing it was bad for me & now I'm craving ecstasy but now it's all a memory. I'm craving the lie, missing the high, screaming in pain feeling like I'm going to die, wishing my toxic lover would've never said goodbye