Do I wait?

s are so emotional... I don't have time for that ride. Don't talk to me right now, and no I'm not hungry, keep that on your side. You s are worse than females, always gossiping n , "bruh what you think I should do, I'm ready leave this bih." Well leave then , ain't no half stepping over here... that's what you good at anyway, you always disappear. I'm saying this now, tryna play the tuff role, lol knowing damn well when you leave I'll be losing control. I hope Chris is ready for the wave of texts she'll be getting, she can thank you for that, this is only the beginning. We've been doing this for years, where the hell is the ending? Will we ever get further than this, I mean damn I've been waiting. How much more time you need? You should have been ready. 8years in this , I'm feeling just like Carrie.. Bradshaw that is, you know the bih off Sex in the city. I do all this complaining about you, but our love is my mission, I'm stuck on this roller coaster, steady turning, steady twisting.. getting sicker by the minute, DAMN make a decision! Is you ready or not, I'm already here, maybe I should put emphasis on the fact it's been 8 DAMN YEARS! Like that's long af my , you still out here choosing? On some flukees, I swear you s love losing. I won't be here for long, better catch me while you can.. talking about some, "one day at a time," what's the plan?! I keep asking God for strength, my patience running thin... I know I'm being tested, I hope I make it to the end.