Thanks Pandora

How you let a lie to you, I mean over and over. Steady making up excuses so you can trust him again. Sitting up crying, listening to 90's RnB, wishing he'd be like those men. I just want something real, the Mary was referring to. All I get is so lonely, this the wrong vibe boo. I thought consistency was key, at least that's what you say. Whole time I still need someone to run to, just trying to excape. Sitting up in my room, telling myself I'm fine... "Oh baby believe me, it's only a matter of time." I hear there's a thin line between love and hate. That line just got more defined. Every time you tell me something, I'm forced to think the opposite. It's like you want to keep me reassured, but you can never deliver it. Everyday I wanna pick up the phone.... I 86 that idea realizing why I'm staring at faded pictures on the wall. I'm too good for this, or am I? Its too late to be first in your life, we're already your second family. "When I think of all the times I say, I'll see you another day," it's just a reminder of the disappointment and despair. I weigh out the pros and cons, but they always seem to level out. Like a sick balance I need you, I cant afford to doubt. "You don't have to look no further than me," nah maybe you do... as much as it may hurt, I think the EX FACTOR is the best move.