Searching for my happiness somewhere along the lines of life itself
I feel like I'm a book that's never been read sitting on a shelf
Damn I'm tired of feeling like shyt
Wondering when you people will finally get it
I'm not just a random toy that you can just throw around
And you sit there expecting me not to make a sound
Imma human being who's been through hell
I feel like the girl who has to live, giving her body for sell
I smile and laugh each day that I awake
But I'm getting to the point where I don't know how much more I can take
I'm trying to understand you, trying to understand me
But I'm different and that's what you refuse to see
Man all I want is to finally be that girl that is happy
Not the shallow female that continuously feels crappy!
I'm spinning in circles trying to find my focus
But I'm starting to feel like the clown constantly laughed at, at the circus
All for what, just to experience something that will never exist
So here i go again taking this big risk
Just to get my feeling hurt,
And to be pushed in the dirt
While opening my mouth to receive a taste
Of what it feels like to live a life of total waste
Trying to get a feel of something that just isn't there
Now I'm stuck looking at myself in the mirror
Because officially happiness will never exist for a girl like me
So imma need all of y'all to leave and just let me be