Toxic Love

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romance

You call and i repeatedly send you to voicemail and once i answer, the voice in my head says go to hell. My heart is still tied to you from the bond i shared with you and the child i once carried by u but something went wrong in the mist of meeting you,flirting with you and getting to know you and moving too fast but we questioned our fate, it felt like we were meant to be from the first date. But u drank and drank till you thought you numbed the pain and muted my voice while you disrespected my name. You played games, it was hard to resist u. The soft moist kisses and tone of your voice. The firmness of your big soft fingers and sparkle in your eyes everytime you smile. You called yourself fat and i called you husky all that mattered was the coziness when you held me. Somewhere things went wrong after we found out i was 3 months, your first child and your were scared and yet tried to be tough. In the beginning you yelled and screamed you didnt want to be tied to me and how stupid i was, and how my other child dad left me. You said u didnt want me to carry your child, time flew fast and with a blink of an eye, the change that flooded in your heart came to late cause your words affected the fate of your first born, thats now a loss and the only connection, bond, short lived experience i have from that haunting memory is through you. Sometimes i hate you then i love you and then my clothes are torn off of me and thrown to the floor while we indulged in love making once more. The Boy in you is trying to be a man but there is a power struggle due to the lack of a male role model in your life. You disrespected your mom so how could you treat me right, through all the fights and cussing, love making and f###### and feeling disgusting. I loved you but our love became toxic. love between us is all we knew, but the excuses started growing old and im tired of loving and trying to love you...