My defeat

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life

My fist slams casually against concrete

I’ve tried to run away 

Yet the heartbreak repeats

Watching you love a good woman 

Forces me to take a

Backseat

I admit,

I’ve met my defeat 

Each morning I stare at this person in the mirror

So afraid to cry for someone who isn’t there

Be strong I preach

Restore the true core of strength

Push inward the pain

A challenge I so formally beg

You’re everything I thought I could do without

An attitude that crumbles with mine

Resentful and full of pride

You’d never hear me beg twice

My soul cries for borrowed time

I am incomplete without you by my side

I watch you walk around 

Content

Smiling

Almost pleased

I’ve met my defeat.

Each night I lay myself down to sleep

Hoping morning will rise gently

Cant believe I’ve made it this far

Getting on without warmth

All those nights I treasured

Your arms speaking forever

My last endeavor to eternal life

Dreaming of our plans together

Anxious to be a wife

Why didn’t I fight harder to keep

The very person that means the world to me

Instead stupidity rekindled

The rebellious outreach

You were my sunshine

My everything

I can no longer 

Wear this disguise 

I must admit, 

It’d be easier to die.

Written by: Desir'ee Chavez