At That Time

Nameless heart

scare of memory

Devilish decisions,
Tempting Ways
A mind driving me to stray.

Broken hearts, shattered mind,
Lonely soul
Oh how i yearn for peace in heart.

Brutal anger flares inside,
Driven by a monster that seems to dwell inside.

He was awoken,
By another mans curse,
Scarred my mind
Never to be Forgotten,
A Memory like this, branding of iron.

Burns to the flesh, in deep memory.

Please help my screaming soul,
My shattered dreams,
My innocence, i did once
Behold of thee.

Saddness and sorrow,
Deep dark in my shattered heart.

How can i break free,
To just remember how thee, two bonnie cherubs used to be..

I yearn for a time,
When i can forget the torturous tempting of anger..
Soul destroying emptiness
Of
Peace of soul and heart

deep within

Deep within my mind a fantasy life exist,
deep within my tormented soul there's emptiness,
darkness is all around,
in this realm I'm bound,

I'm faraway from home,
completely depressed and alone,
deep within my flesh poison is bubbling,
and my rusted stark bones are quickly crumbling,

my deep wounds never stop bleeding,
the demons deep within me have stopped breathing,
it's gonna take more than one bottle of gin,
to completely fill the void that lies deep within

thief of my heart

exposed

The Question of shadows

withdraw

Withdraw
A word so true
A definition so clear
That everyone knew
But in this context
So blue
Its meaning is not
So new

Love
A word so great
That from everyone
There is much debate
Its the opposite
Of hate
With such power
From my mate

What will occur
When these two terms
Clash

It is pain
It is terror
It is sorrow

We have not spoken
We have not seen

I cannot stand
Not being able
To hold your hand

I need you by me
I need you with me

I need to hear
Your voice so clear
I need to see
You right here
I need to touch
Your lips with mine

Or else I will suffer
From a pain so true
From not being
There with you

At That Time

There was no name caught within my cries
just a knowing silence that filled the spaces
between reality and how far it had wandered
from days when I grasped its presence

though my gut tried forcing foolishness to my throat
I could endure the ache of hope no longer
and succumbed to accepting the consequence of failure

somewhere in the unwritten lies
unexposed truths and chilling injustice
was a purpose that I tried to need

there was no name caught within my cries
there was only me

The Earth The Sky and Us

 
Come on. Come out. Come here. Come nearer.
The needs of the night and the wants of the ocean
They push. They pull. They build.
The fire that is spiraling inside

I’ll close my eyes and count to five
I’ll craft the only thing I know from ache into surprise
I’m shaking, you say those things
You’re smile, I say these things
I’ll lose pieces to the wind
As you take them, hold them, pull them off

Come on. Come out. Come here. Come nearer.
The needs of the night and the wants of the ocean
They push. They pull. They build.
The fire that is spiraling inside

I’ll close my hands and listen for your voice
I’ll take the words and keep them, as if you had a choice
It’s louder, I can hardly speak now
You say we need to find the way
No need to be afraid
Even if itââ‚...

Mirage

 Rubbing my eyes, I shift in the bed sheets
Rolling over to find that you are not there
Realizing you were just a dream

Groaning I toss and turn, yanking the blanket up to my chin
Grabbing the barking alarm clock to hush it
Glaring at the red time blinking 4:16 a.m.

I lie there and wonder, were you really here
I sigh and close my eyes, remembering your face
I yawn and think; you were never here

Sighing I think of our conversation
Segments of thoughts and speech come back to me
Shivering I consider all that could be

Reaching I find the source
Rousing the ripple lightly
Remembering what you said

I lay there and wonder, will it really be
I sigh and close my eyes, resisting what I cannot
I shake and quake and feel warm all over

The red time blinks again
Telling me its time to go, move on, get up
Torturing me with its twis...