969 Hell Blvd

WARNING: This poem, although is NOT my truth, it IS someone's truth. If you are sensitive to a dark reality DO NOT READ BEYOND THIS POINT.

Dear John,

After all the years we’ve been together and all the sh!t you put me through I finally come to accept that I was only being used. When you got laid off
3 days after we met I thought that was strange.
You needed a place… I moved you in… then your attitude changed!
It used to be “baby this and baby that.” Then it became “b!tch this and b!tch that!” Had me all confused! I never thought it would be me… the woman being abused.
See Boo, I was raised on the mean streets of Chicago; fighting back is nothing for me.
But I reasoned you were drunk; it wouldn’t happen again then 1 time turned into
3!  4, 5, and then 20... before long every weekend an azz kickin I would take!
When you were sober you'd cry “Baby forgive me, hittin you was a mistake!”
Thinking back, it’s crazy!  I loved you more than I loved myself; threw away all my pride. It seemed as though you hated me but, for you I would have died!
You continued beating me, even threatening me with your gun; too bad you didn’t lock it up. Because 3 weeks later you went too far and finally ran out of luck!
That fateful night the beating began I cried out “Baby pleeeease, you’re hurting me!”
You yelled “B!tch, do you really think I care?!”
You threw me on the floor, sat on top of me and start snatching out my hair!
At that point I became enraged! My temper I then lost! Somehow I overpowered you…
grabbing your gun I shouted! “Do you know how much Femi cost?!”
I checked the chamber then took aim, putting two bullets in your head!
Looking down at your corpse I whispered, “You can’t hurt me anymore; your evil azz is dead!”

I’m writing you this letter… at peace, feelin no regrets although I'm now jail.
For all the hurt and pain you caused me; I blew you straight to Hell!
This letter is being sent to 969 Hell Blvd, your forwarding address.
You’re among your own kind now; Snakes, Demons and the Devil…
I wish you all the best! (wink)

Foxxy Brown