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You need a reference doc for the wisdom that I am getting ready to distribute. You just dont have the feeling you need to meet the demans of your life. You are still operating off of hurt principles. It cant be that simple. The words just cant flow so ordinary that you have to take extraordinary measure to meet the demands of your ideal life. Keep fighting for what you believe in but the key to it all is to stop fighting. Sharpen your teeth and let your goals tremble at your grit. Aint that about a b*tch. 

You have to project strength before you have it. Make a note of it. Grab an oar, make a boat of that. Swim out to your dreams. You just have to believe that you have always been swimming. 

Because lately you have been skimming, touching the surface and not diving in. 

Finding Peace

I had to find peace which means I had to let a bunch of things go. I was holding on to things that I didnt need to hold on to. It wasnt mine to hold anyway. I gave it back to its owner. I was giving it to much meaning. 

I should have found grace in the hands of my maker. He wanted the best for me even when nothing was said and no direction was given. I didnt realize just how blessed I was. 

So I found peace and I let go. 

Framework

Im coasting on pure adrenaline, I dont even feel anything right now. Im sure the pain is coming afterwards but I couldnt care less. Im careless and cautious, at the same time wreckless and have no regrets. I have debts, once that I thought I should have paid but I could have easily let them go. They were owed to people who couldnt keep promises. 

That is the worst kind of person to owe something to. 

Biscuits and Gravy

its all been biscuits and gravy, choking on life and have it slide down nice and easy. I was determined to move forward, I wanted to face the horror and emerge mint. I was grinding in the gears, like peppercorn and scorning the entire way to do something significant. 

And the world is not slowing me down either, it is just showing me who I am. I can speak life into this world and it will bend to my will when supported by the God and this mighty Universe. 

Some call it a curse, I call it introspection and there is no deflection on what I can accomplish. 

Dog eat dog

What up dog? It is what it always has been and we are moving forward in the light of the divine. There is wine for everyone and Judas got bounced at the door. And now that we have had a taste, we want more. Greed is a cup that overfloweth and I knoweth the truth. I am a supreme being doing supreme things and in the pleasure of good company. 

My mentally is twisted. I am doing the rare things that others wont do. When other reel back, I lunge forward and smile the whole way. I have a basket full of thoughts and all focused at my true enemy. 

.... my own limiting beliefs. 

No Errors

I have committed no errors. I am not committed to them. I am constantly moving forward so it is hard to look back. I was leaving my competition in the dust, I just could not see anyone. I was too far ahead. 

I was in the dream and it was full steam ahead. I was alive and dead. I was killing the competition and giving myself life at the same time. 

Im rugged, thugged out and educated. Who knew I would have made it this far? I did.

Blackness

Is it something that can take away from me? I won the skin color lottery. The reason I am winning it because I base my opinion of people not on their skin color, but the content of God in their character. The question is not that I get to live but more so that I get to die. So many people didnt make it and here I am in the abundance of Gods glory. Talk about having a story to tell, I was a thought before I could think so think about that and just be in awe of this beautiful thing called life and how you walk through the world. 

In blackness. 

Olives

I love olives, the green kind. Not the black one that are locked in the cans. At least with the green ones, they put them in glass and there is a hope of something out there. I am reading too much into it. There is hope everywhere, you really just have to be willing to look for it. 

I can tell you for certain that I see it everywhere and my hope and wish is that you can see it too. 

Stubbed Toe

I was walking around my room the other day and every I turned I stubbed my toe. Like God was trying to tell me something. I was not paying attention to something that I should have been paying attention to and the Universe kept sending me reminders that I needed to do the work. 

I was sweating bullets and still working on the wrong things. The one thing we are obedient in is being disobedient. We should be listening more than we talk and knowledge of self is a powerful thing just as it is a weakness I guess.

I stubbed my toe again. 

Bedtime

Its already bedtime and I am putting all rumours to rest. Im well rested and the world has tested me, I passed. Passed on a lot of the bullsh*t and saw the beauty of everything that there every was, even the beauty in you. I am a hurricane and I make it rain and then pure silence and then reign. The world gives you exactly what you ask for. I wanted a lot of it and I was hungry and greedy at the same time. 

I was eating in my sleep. You reap what you sow and I am reaping. Time to wake up.