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Heaviness weighted in my heart
For confidence to pass out
As it takes last breath.
My heart was aching
It was winning the fight
Breaking me down little by little.
Not sure what to do
Fearfully fighting the pain
So sure the worst would come.
Searching through my thoughts
A voice reregistered in the
Back of my mind as I
Remembered a conversation
With an old friend who said.
“My wife’s name is Hope.”
Then the verse hit me.
Immediately I flashed back
In time to an old familiar song.
“My hope is built on
Nothing less than Jesus blood
And righteousness!”
The heavyweight on
My heart lifted like
A hot air balloon into the sky,
I rejoiced as it took flight.
“I dare not trust the
Sweetest frame but wholly lean
On Jesus’ name!”
My smile hugged me
Happiness surrounded me
My soul cried out I love you!!
“On Christ the solid
Rock I stand all other ground
Is sinking sand
All other ground is sinking sand.”
Relieved, I smiled
Laughing at myself as I
Saw my selfishness
Revealed in a line
Displaying across my screen
My closed mind had opened.
Everything made sense
My soul humbled with respect
As its force hit me.
How foolish of me
To think of myself without
The consideration of others.
Everything isn’t always about self
With this lesson learned
I’ve accepted love for and
With what it wants to give me
Without taking what I wanted from it.
I was selfish to be upset
At anything or one.
LP45 7/19
