Inadequate

If ever i felt a tad bit out of place or like i didn't belong.... it's today

i mean maybe i shouldn't... and then again maybe i should

All day long i sat and i thought

about if i was good enough or not...

when i meet them, will her family see what she see's in me evnthough i don't

will they catch on to the fact that, i never really think

i'm as good or even close to what most think of me...

i mean i wonder if i am good enough for her...

Cuz when i see her my heart skips 3 beats...

and pounds so hard against my chest that i feel it throughout my body...

And when she's near me as nervous as i get i still stay calm, because when ever she looks into my eyes

it eases my restless mind...

It's like maddness when she touches me

cuz i wanna shiver but i don't want her to know that she does that to me...

And she always wonerds why my hands are always clamy...

It's the simple fact that we can share a moment together with out one word and my heart still flutters like the wings of a butterfly

AND.... , in my eyes

she could never do any wrong... that's just how i feel about her

I wonder if she feels just as strongly as i do and if i have the same effect on her...

Cuz i just can't help but feel like i'm not good enough most days

and today has been the absolute worst cuz i just feel like i could never be as good as i wanna be, for her...

and i feel like i could be and do so much more for her but at the same time i can't... grrrr....

i mean i just feel so DAMN INADEQUATE!!!!