The "Love" that we thought we knew

Saying that I "love" you is just some fancy words or a verb that really just means that I care, and that because of the world's definition of "love" I'm allowed to subconsciously treat you unfair. How can I possibly "love" you and hurt you at the same damn time?! Through all of the blatant disrespects and your many sleepless nights that was spent crying. Few words and a few gifts, some make up sex, change for a Lil bit, that's "love" because you always fall for the same s%@t. As the "love" that we know of today was passed down from generation to generation, it's a hard core fact that it all started after the plantations. Once our minds and visions were destroyed, after all of the suffering that we face daily, you're telling me that the person that "loves" me is allowed to add an tally, to my already many problems and we should lay together every night and I shouldn't never doubt em! That just don't sound right, I'm fighting my own issues everyday, they're just adding to my fights. How can I can be 60-0 against the world, and when I get home to you I can suffer my first loss, and I'm supposed to accept it right because of your love I sought?! That don't sound like "love", that sounds like disrespect, once my mind became unclouded, I've learned that the real definition of "love" means the "ultimate" respect. So "love" means that we're fighting together and not against each other, I'm respecting you all of my days because I really can trust ya. If something catastrophic was to happen, I'll get on that ship with no hesitation and I would be honored to call you captain. And let you sail us to the all of the islands of righteousness, this is real "love" and respect, we can risk our lives for it... Marriages are ordained on the world's definition of "love" instead of the ultimate respect that in which Yah intended for us. Qadar Dwon' 4/1/15