I feel it getting closer and closer everyday. Its like something that I cant fight. And who in their right mind would try to fight the future. I know the future is about the actions I perform right now but I am waist deep in addiction. Addiction to distraction, to lust, to religion, to work. I need investment. But I need to invest in myself before anyone else sees my value. Im valuable. My thoughts are rampant and uncentered but I am unfettered. Undettered and more focused than ever. And yet I don't want to be clever enough to let my own words fool me. My actions are my testament and my progress is my test. I have failed today but success is within me tomorrow. I need this -- more than I have needed anything in this world. I want this. And I need you. I want you to want me to have this just like I want you to have it. I know I switched this from me to you but in a way, it was always about you seeing the value in me to help me see the value in myself. Am I right?