A Battle For Peace

Embrace my soul
Make me whole again
Free my mind of negative thoughts.
Bits and pieces are slowly
Tearing away from me.
I'm trying to put them back
But its hard to see.
Scar tissue seems to grow
Whenever my anger makes the ink flow.
Time has taken its toll
As care-less feelings take their stroll
Up and down memory lane
leaving just a shadow behind me
Like a permanent stain
On an old shirt.
So lettings be
As they've become
I look for guidance for the long run.
To perhaps see better days and better ways
To feel and better deal
With life's Ferris wheel.
Sights on straighter paths
Are sometimes hard to keep,
Spun in circles 'til all is a blur
Then stopped when everything else
Is still going.
Now walk!
No balance, no guidance, no hand to hold.
Stumbling and falling to the ground repeatedly
'Til it's finally over.
Now try to make things right by
Picking up the pieces day and night
While frustration builds and
Tears down everything you've
Tried to repair.
Where is the end to all this despair??!!
I fall to my knees covering my head
Rocking back and forth, crying.
A comforting embrace takes hold
My pain finally lets go
A voice soothes my soul
Bringing me to my feet
And I'm shown the way to go.
I asked to hold His hand
Until I was safe,
He smiled, acknowledged and touched my face.
So back on the straight and narrow I go
As tears of relief begin to flow
But dry as time goes on
The sunshine on my face is warm,
My heart has found peace once again.

By Juanita J. Smalls ©3/2/16